Oh hello, slightly neglected blog. I’ve missed your face. I was not being lazy and failing to update you. Not this time, at least. I’ve had a bit of a flair up of my carpal tunnel which makes a lot of typing just suck. Other things that suck: trying to open jars, holding anything, trying to use my phone. It’s ridiculous. I type a few words and rest my hands. This makes my job as a web developer a little awkward at the moment, but whattaya do? The good news is I saw a doctor again about my hands. This was a new doc, one who fully appreciates the value of a good joke. He was also one that didn’t just shrug and tell me essentially to just deal with my hands. So, you know, bonus points. Actually he has quite a few tricks up his sleeves. First I have to get a blood test done to check for vitamin deficiencies, which is something that never occurred to me. Then I get to do physical therapy. While the thought of PT usually makes me groan, how bad can hand PT possibly be? If that doesn’t work, there’s injections, electro-shock stuff, ultrasound therapy, and others that I don’t even know about. I’m just so relieved to have a doctor that will work to fix this.
So posting may be slow. Maybe some photos here and there. It’s just whatever I can do when my hands are cooperating.
That was sarcasm…I think! Anyway,I decided on a spur-ish of the moment to change my hosts. It’s not that I had a particularly bad experience, I’m just cheap and needed cheaper hosting, preferably not by a company that likes elephant killers. Since it was so spur of the moment, I really didn’t plan ahead for this, so there’s some tweak-age that desperately needs to be done. However, I am tired, so first I sleep. Excuse the dust.
Why are some things so difficult to decide on? Things that shouldn’t be that difficult to figure out, that is. When I think about how I want to develop this site and what I want it do be, I draw a blank. I just don’t know anymore. I know it needs to grow with me, but all I can do is get obsessive over stuff like font type.
I’ve also been toying with a sort of business name in case I ever decide to freelance my webskillz. Again, can’t make up my mind on a single thing. It’s like I’m expecting a lighting bolt of inspiration or to just have that bam moment where I know what I want, but so far I’ve got nothing. I think it would be easier if I was nutty about something, like knitting coozies or organic cauliflower. (I hate cauliflower, actually.)
H0w d0 other people do it? How do they get passionate about something and just KNOW it’s the perfect fit?
I decided that this year, I’m going to attempt the Nano..something. NaBloPoMo. National Blog Posting Month? Hell, I don’t know. The goal is to post something every day for the month of November. I’d do the novel writing one instead, but that is far too ambitious for me at this point.
Of course, obstacles for this feat include the fact that I have recently (i.e., last week) been diagnosed with carpal tunnel in both hands, have almost cut off part of my thumb an hour ago, and I have a short attention span. But dammit, I’m going to try. Even if it’s at 11:30pm trying to get in the last post, I WILL TRY.
Or get distracted by something ridiculous. Either or.
Also, does this post count?
I’m getting to the point now where I can finally breathe and get on with things. It’s being a crazy cluster-eff of a few months. Feelings are good now though. Drama levels are low. It’s wavy gravy.
So in the midst of all the craziness, I did get to make my first trek to Chicago. I haven’t flown since 1998, so I was more nervous about the process of flying than I was about landing in new city to me and making my way to my hotel using public transportation. As much as I hear about the TSA and regulations, it was pretty standard. Well, as standard as standing shoeless in a nudie scanner could possibly be. As fun as flying was, I found the trains and buses in Chicago freaking awesome, especially the trains. Those are probably the most practical mass transit options out there. My city, however, wants a streetcar. A streetcar, as best as I can tell, that goes from the college area to downtown. So, you know, not really useful to anyone but college students. Not that anything wouldn’t be an improvement, but trains are freaking awesome. TRAINS! WOO!
Also on the way to Chicago, I gave up on 3 years of being a vegetarian/pescetarian. After watching the movie Fathead, I began to suspect that my crappy feelings were due more to my diet than anything else. My odd craving for meat tipped me off too. Bacon ended up being my downfall. No one told me bacon was so delicious. Dear god, it is fantastic. I ate it every chance I could.
As for Chicago — and the wonderful DrupalCon I attended — it is seriously one of my favorite cities. I only had a limited amount of time to spend so first on my list was Skydeck. Despite my crippling fear of heights, I did get out on the glass ledge. I mean, no sense in paying if you’re not going to experience it all. Next up was the Art Institute which was just unbelievable. I spent a good 3 hours there and still didn’t feel like I saw everything. It was only my aching feet that stopped me from continuing. Related, those Dr Scholl’s gel inserts are bullshit.
Also in Chicago, I got to spend some time in the Field Museum after hours, which is really the way to experience big attractions like that. I got to see the Tsavo lions finally and had enough private moments to take jackass pictures of myself posing with various exhibits. You can’t do that in a packed house. Well… You can, but…
The conference kept me busy for a few days, but I had one last item on the to-do list: the ferris wheel at the Navy Pier. Again with my fear of heights, this seemed like an odd choice but I had never been on one my entire life. Sitting on the ferris wheel was more terrifying than the Skydeck. I made in through one slow rotation before getting off. I don’t know how people do that shit for fun.
So it’s been months of adventure and some bullshit. But thankfully it’s all behind me now.
Okay, so I know the whole point of this blog is to talk about my feelings or maybe that’s the whole point of people blogging; I’m not sure which. But I’m usually reticent to really talk about my feelings because a) my anxiety medicine does a good job about helping me ignore my feelings and b) really, TALK about my feelings? I should mention that the anxiety meds also do a hell of a job in helping me mock people with feelings. HAHA!
So here’s the thing: There has been a lot of shit going on. A lot. I’ve gone from feeling like “ain’t got time to panic” to “fuuuuuuuuuck!! PAAAANIIIIIC!” in a rather long, drawn-out time span. I’m exhausted- mentally, emotionally, physically. I’ve gotten mysterious “stomach bugs” during all of this, which SUCKED horribly, because I didn’t have time for it. And getting sick sucks, but these stomach ailments were just miserable. Also, there was never really time to panic; I mean, sure, shit looked almost impossible to overcome at times, but as the mister says, shit seems to work itself out. You’d think I’d figure that out after 32 years, but I suppose if I could, I wouldn’t be on anxiety meds, now would I?
I like to think I am straight-forward with people, and I think for the most part I am. Lately, because of this bottle of emotions that seems to want to explode, I’ve been a little more irrational than usual and I think that is clouding my judgment. I’m using judgment to keep my mouth shut as a result. Sure, I could go off on people and express my “emotions”, but if those emotions are a direct result of the drain and strain and the irrationality, maybe I’m just being overly sensitive at the moment. Mouth = shut for the most part. Which leaves me with little outlet to leak out this pent-up emotion because surely I will end up opening floodgates.
Maybe I should talk to my cat. Not a euphemism.
I know, annoying title. Ha!
Somewhere in between my last blog post and this one, I’ve been on vacation and playing subsequent catch-up. And in between the catch-up, I decided I had enough shit from MovableType. I have a low tolerance for fixing shit. Well…not really, if you consider I’ve been with MovableType since I moved from having my code in Italian. Ah, back in the day…
Anyway, there was something that just irked the shit out of me, and that was the final straw. Not that I can remember what it was, but it was probably something minor considering the other issues I’ve worked through. So now I’m on WordPress, which was a surprisingly easy switch. Of course, the design aspects are the ones that tend to irk me the most, so I imagine those will change as well. It seems that in the digital world as in life, I can’t sit still very long.
Also, some of my posts have some tiny font syndrome…not sure WHAT is up with that. One more thing to fix!
As I alluded to in other posts, I have officially starting my podcasting career, along with Eyerait and a third co-host, Steve. The podcast is named Where’s My Pants? and is a comedy-filled look at social and pop culture. Read more about the podcast here and check out the first two episodes here.
Part of my goals for a while was to redesign this site to my own liking without the use of someone else’s style. Maybe it was a lack of motivation or focus, but it took me a while to actually commit to the project. I’m still toying with a few things, but the main overhaul is done. I’m really enjoying the color scheme I’ve got. It’s not that I don’t like blue, I’m just rather sick of it. I worked off a scheme that contained about 9 different colors, and I think it all turned out rather nicely.
Now if I can figure out where the hell the “previous” button is…
I decided to stop being lazy and do a much-needed redesign of the site. And by redesign, I mean “find a new template”, cause, really, I’m not all THAT motivated. While I liked the dark background, unfortunately my eyes are getting older with the rest of me and I was seeing weird funky things after staring at it too long. So now it’s bright and happy. Uh..unlike my soul, which is DARK! AND GLOOMY!
New banner as well. For this, I used this awesome set of feather brushes for GIMP, by vrhmq7 on Deviant Art.